I'm not sure I like New Blogger.

I'm remembering the first day I started on Blogger. 2006, I think? Damn. I wish I could update all the time like I used to. I miss keeping track of my life. I don't even keep a journal anymore.

I feel like a Ke$ha song - young and broke and hungover, except I haven't been to a party since February and my last friend is moving far north in August. I need some new friends, but God only knows where I'll find them.

I don't want to have friends I don't like. I don't want some old friends that I have bad memories of. Is it so hard to find people that I mesh with, have some things in common with, and don't want to facepalm myself over because I think they're stupid? Apparently.



I haven't acted since January. But I have stage managed four shows, and, while it's such a draining, enormous, taxing job, I love it for some reason. Possibly due to my latent masochistic tendencies, I don't know.

Upcoming project: Othello. It will only be the second show I act in this year. I'm playing Desdemona. And that's huge for me - I'm only 20 and already I've played Ophelia and Desdemona? Some people never get to do that. Marlene's directing this one, too - she's putting Othello in black leather. I envision Desdemona as straight-up punk: spiky blue hair, black vest with chains and bolts in it, red tartan miniskirt, ripped up fishnets, combat boots. Again, I don't know why I want this. A return to form, maybe? My punk days were behind me by the time I was fifteen. I was always more goth anyway.


Between you and me, given the choice, I think I'd rather be stage managing.



I'm also dying to finish January Brings Few Faces. I just - I have an outline, but God, it got so big and developed that the original story has still yet to be told. I just don't have time to do things I like anymore. For Christ's sake, I work 3 jobs.

3 Comments:

Wow, you are busy! But I'm glad you are seeing all the sides of the theater and know it all so well now.

The new play sounds so cool.

Love, the update. Its taken me awhile to embrace the new blogger, too.

By  Unknown, at 7/05/2012 12:09:00 AM  

Blogger has changed. Its some getting used to, but its not too bad.

That's great you are so busy in theater. The play sounds amazing!

As for friends, well..I dunno what it is..but they never seem exactly what you hope for. But what can I say, I keep trying. A lot of times I feel I'm only there as a listener. And the person they think is me..is often nothing like me.

I'm glad you updated. All the best to your creativity.

By  ellie, at 7/05/2012 09:40:00 AM  

Hope your summer is great ..full of ideas and what not. Just wondering if you'd ever started up any Bizarro fiction. Slightly like my another ellie story..I guess..although, that just might be weird fiction. I have no idea if I can ever get seriously bizarro..yet I'd like to give it a chance.

Have you heard of the "haunted vagina" or "Hitler in Wonderland"?

I quite possibly have an idea. Just not sure I should share it quite yet.

Keep writing!

By  ellie, at 8/09/2012 12:06:00 PM  

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Cady, 21 - struggling actress, harried stage manager, bored sales rep. Luckily, not all at the same time.

I love late nights and early mornings, smoking without the head rush, blue hair, eating out at three a.m., swear words, phrases that sound inappropriate out of context, my combat boots, and my cat.